Saying "Yes" to God during Lent


Woman, here is your son . . . Here is your mother.
                                                                      - John 19

Each of Jesus’ sayings from the cross is powerful in its own way.  Today’s saying is powerful because it is so personal.  Here Jesus’ own mother is close enough to hear him speak to her.  She does not speak here, which is part of the power.  So we are left wondering, imagining, what it must have been like for her. 

What would it have been like for Mary to have her life at 13 or 14 swept into such a breath-taking drama of God’s plans for the world?  What was it like to raise Jesus along with his siblings in an observant Jewish home in Nazareth for all those years?  What was it like for her when he left their home place for good at 30, for baptism in the Jordan and an itinerant life of teaching and healing?  And what was it like when finally both the Jewish authorities and the Romans grew tired of the trouble he was causing and had him arrested, tried, and sentenced to die?

Mary plays an important role in John’s gospel, though it is a different role than she plays in Matthew, Mark, and Luke. 

John places Mary as a witness to the crucifixion.  The other gospels make no mention of her there.  The other three gospels do mention a group of women who witnessed the resurrection.  They list a group of women who were from Galilee and had followed and supported Jesus.  They also mention women from Jerusalem.  They mention Mary Magdalene, and Mary the mother of James and Joseph.  But none of them mention Mary, the mother of Jesus as one of the bystanders.  And they picture the women standing far off, watching from a distance.  None imagines any of the women close enough to the dying Jesus to hear him speak.

Matthew and Luke introduce us to Mary primarily in the prologues to their gospels.  But John’s gospel does not include a birth narrative with Joseph and Mary visited by angels and bearing the infant Messiah.  Only Matthew and Luke tell include that part of Mary’s story.  But John places Mary here at the cross.

Many of you know that John’s gospel is a gospel of “signs.”  Jesus performs seven miraculous “signs” that are meant to call forth belief in God.  I say seven only because that’s the usual assumption.  The turning of water into wine is the first “sign,” and the raising of Lazarus from the dead is the seventh and final “sign.”

But some bible scholars are questioning that way of thinking.  Maybe the raising of Lazarus is NOT the final “sign.”  Maybe the death of Jesus on the cross is the last, and ultimate “sign” in John’s gospel.  And if that’s an appropriate way to read the gospel, then John has given Mary a central role in both the first sign – the wedding at Cana – and the last sign – the crucifixion of Jesus.

So when Jesus says from the cross, “Woman, here is your son” (referring to the disciple John), and to the disciple, “Here is your mother,” there is something more going on than a simple reference to what Mary’s living arrangements will be.  John’s gospel, through the words of Jesus on the cross, invites us to imagine our own pilgrimage through the eyes of his mother.  Mary becomes for us a pattern of what it means to follow, and to love, this one who is crucified.

I want to break here for a minute to bring into this conversation the work of a German Jesuit theologian named Karl Rahner.  My professional training is theology, and I have spent an embarrassing amount of my life reading really big, thick, dense books by all sorts of crusty old fellows of every stripe (and some women too!).  And I can say that of all the theologians I’ve read, Karl Rahner is one of the three or four that has made the most lasting impact on my own life and faith.

I will share with you just one piece of his theological work.  He pictures the goal of human life as saying “yes” to God.  He is not thinking of a tent revival, where there’s a preacher making an altar call, and everyone is swaying to “I have decided to follow Jesus,” and you walk forward for baptism in the river.  According to Rahner, your entire life, in its total arc from birth to death, is itself a way of saying “Yes” to God.  In fact, Rahner argues that every life, in its completeness, is either a “Yes” or a “No” spoken in response to the grace of God.

He doesn’t mean that at the very end of your life, on your death bed, your heart either softens into receiving God or hardens against God.  He means that during the ordinary, daily, course of every person's life, while we’re doing laundry or running errands or raking leaves, we are learning to say either “Yes” or “No” to the grace of God.

You might think about it in terms of a writer editing a rough draft.  What begins as an unwieldy, overgrown sprouting of wordiness begins, over time, to be carved down into only those precise words that absolutely have to be said.  And at the end, the writer can say, “Now that’s what I wanted to say.” 

Rahner imagines our lives like that.  Our lives are full of all kinds of words and actions and thoughts.  But the goal of a life is to edit out all that’s un-needed until you’ve finally said only what you want most to say.  And by God’s grace, at the end of our lives we will have wadded up a thousand rough drafts, left only with one word, one prayer, “Yes.”

Mary, the mother of Jesus, holds out for us this possibility of a life that has become, in the end, a “Yes” to the grace of God.  In Luke’s birth narrative, Mary responds to the angelic visit with these words, “May it be to me according to your word.”  She used nine words.  But underneath those nine words lie the one word, “Yes.”

John’s gospel pictures Mary many years later, facing the worst that a hateful, violent world can do to a person.  And she’s still saying, “Yes.”

O God, who lives gloriously as Father, Son, and Spirit,
Grant us your enlivening grace in the depths of our lives, new each day.
And come into us, among us and between us with the gentle power of your Spirit,
And enable us to give voice to that utterly unchanging “Yes” that is the only proper response to your love.  Amen.

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